We Forgot to Tell Our Daughter About Her Diagnosis
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In retrospect, I took a lot for granted.
My 12-year-old daughter, whom we affectionally refer to as Ladybug, has probably seen more doctors than the average child her age. Although her visits started with the discovery of a rare allergy to spinach, finding out she has hereditary angioedema, or HAE, made us “frequent flyers” at many doctors’ offices.
I learned early in our medical journey with Ladybug that she was pretty astute during trips to the doctor’s office. She had this fantastic ability to covertly listen while doctors would explain everything to my husband and me. Because of that, when we were in the car, she’d often reveal exactly how knowledgeable she was about specific things she’d heard.
Her asthma diagnosis? She completely understood. Her need for the prescription medication Xolair (omalizumab) due to her idiopathic urticaria? Even at age 9, she could explain what that meant. After almost every doctor’s appointment, she knew exactly what was going on.
“How awesome,” I’d thought. “She’s smart enough to understand without needing an explanation. How cool is that?”
But after we heard the words “hereditary angioedema,” I noticed she wasn’t talking as much. Plus, after each lengthy doctor’s appointment, I didn’t really want to talk about things. Instead, I’d sit quietly and try to process the overwhelming information we’d just received.
If we were in the ER, I’d say, “They’re about to give you some medicine to make you feel better,” which seemed to satisfy her confusion. Other times, she’d inquire about her medicine deliveries or subsequent trips to the doctor, all of which I thought I’d been answering with clarity.
By late summer last year, two months shy of her 12th birthday, Ladybug had been hospitalized 20 times and received countless doses of the treatment Berinert at home. Although we’d since switched to telehealth appointments with her doctor, there’d been an uptick in their frequency. Meanwhile, I was a self-proclaimed expert at this HAE thing, playing sidekick to my superhero daughter.
But after a particularly arduous at-home infusion, my husband and I sat at our kitchen table congratulating Ladybug on the amazing job she’d done. Ladybug sighed as she rested her head in one of her hands. “I’ll be glad when I grow out of this,” she said.
I felt like my heart had stopped. I glanced at my husband as he winced. I couldn’t believe what I’d done — I’d assumed she understood everything that we understood about her disease. The next 30 minutes of our conversation was eye-opening.
First, we talked about the different ways HAE has affected her body, what we were currently hoping for, and plans for other therapies and medications. Then I explained to our tearful daughter that while her flares would get better, she would always have HAE.
Although we’d been dealing with her disease for years and were six months into her official diagnosis, for all intents and purposes, Ladybug was just finding out.
There are still times when we walk away from a doctor’s appointment, hospitalization, or training for a new medication and I don’t have it in me to meticulously explain to her what’s happening. But I do it anyway. Talking about it gives us both the opportunity to process the new information together.
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